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[solovei]

Quick recap of the last two weeks because I kept meaning to post and then things would invariably happen:

• Took Monday/Tuesday last week (May 1-2) off work because I had spent half of my Easter long weekend with migraines and I felt like I had to make up for it. Activities included finishing my sense8 rewatch, drawing, and Horizon Zero Dawn (I should write something more fully about that), though I did venture out to the mall to buy new work clothes. It's unseasonably warm here (which means we actually have a lot of wildfires happening?!) and I'm not mentally prepared for it to be summer yet, so shopping helped a little.
• Unfortunately, I managed to also pick up some kind of... cold, or sinus infection, or something somewhere, (congestion, runny nose, general head-full-of-snot feeling) which came on Tuesday afternoon and got steadily worse throughout the day. I will fully admit that I should NOT have gone to work in that state on Wednesday BUT in my defence: I thought it may have been allergies, I wore a mask all day, and also I'm still getting used to the whole "nobody will think you're lazy for taking sick time" situation I'm finding myself in. Worked from home the rest of the week and should be okay to go back tomorrow, hopefully.
• Been absolutely sucked into Disco Elysium since starting it on Thursday evening. Like, staying-up-till-2-am kind of sucked in, I genuinely didn't think I would like this game as much as I did.... (no spoilers plz, I'm not done yet!!!) Expect more posts/squee on this in the future
• Tabletop the last two Saturdays, which went pretty well! Ongoing Pathfinder campaign last week, and Starfinder's "Save The Renkrodas" scenario before that. There's a very  bi-flag dinosaur! You can make friends with it! We drove a car over the bad guy's face! Also now I need to level up my Safety Inspector (putting this here so I don't forget but I probably will and have to panic level as usual)

Generally speaking I'm finding myself in a weird sort of headspace where it feels like everything needs to happen now and that there's too many things I need/want to do at once so I end up just doing one thing for too long instead of breaking stuff up and doing a little of multiple things. Now that I have stable/good employment for like the first time in my adult life, I feel like I need to rush to get all the other aspects of my life squared away, to make up for all the time they were on hold while I was trying to GET said employment (and due to the panini) -- like, finding a somewhat nicer place to live (my kingdom for in-suite laundry...), reviving my social life, how do people even date nowadays??, etc.  and trying to do all of those at once is very overwhelming!

Part of this is the usual "oh no I'm X years old and I haven't done [milestone of adult life that society expects of me] yet!!!" anxiety, yes. But knowing what it is doesn't mean knowing what to do about it!

Comments

[isis]

Yay, you posted something! :-)

Did you finish Horizon ZD? It's still my favorite video game that I've played. So cool you've gotten into DE, I keep seeing it on sale but haven't gone for it yet.

Hope your cold goes away, I've got allergies but they stay in their lane. My spouse though has been super miserable with a cold he picked up somehow, finally getting over it but I still make him sleep in the spare bedroom because I don't want to get it!

As far as adulting, I'm sure you'll get all those things done eventually. I think that the more quality of life affecting something is, the more urgency you feel to get it done, so you can put some stuff off and get the others done. (But I also have things on my amorphous list that have been there for...too long.)

[solovei]

I haven't quite finished HZD yet. I'm around the part where you go to Sunfall after taking down the evil guys' network (I think I literally saved just outside of Sunfall last time I played) - not sure how far along that is in the story! I actually didn't think I would like HZD as much as I did, the more I play it the more I notice stuff it did really well - and the story is interesting and sad.

Re: quality of life, yeah that's definitely part of it. Like, these are things I want to improve for sure but none of them are immediately pressing; even the strange urgency is more amorphous than anything. My apartment is not great but if has been not great for 6 years and several more months won't make it worse -- XD maintaining the status quo is less scary than change, even good change!

[isis]

Ooh, you have lots of story left, you're about 3/4 done, not counting the (excellent) Frozen Wilds DLC which I'm pretty sure I did after two more quests after the "take down the network" one. It really is an interesting and sad story, and I love the way it builds up the backstory through datapoints and the Vantage logs and the occasional hologram in a bunker.

[ride_4ever]

Generally speaking I'm finding myself in a weird sort of headspace where it feels like everything needs to happen now and that there's too many things I need/want to do at once so I end up just doing one thing for too long instead of breaking stuff up and doing a little of multiple things....and trying to do all of those at once is very overwhelming! Part of this is the usual "oh no I'm X years old and I haven't done [milestone of adult life that society expects of me] yet!!!" anxiety, yes. But knowing what it is doesn't mean knowing what to do about it!

Yeah, that is totally me too...and I'm a few decades older than you, so clearly this is not one of those things where "age brings wisdom". *sigh*

[solovei]

Good to know I can expect to have this feeling for a while :D

My strategy has been to try and examine whether the thing in question actually applies to me (and is something I need to worry about) or not. Like, the reason a lot of people get married at a certain age is because they want children, and since I'm unburdened by that desire, my timeline might be quite different to someone who knows for sure they need to start a family by age 30 or whatever.